Ramblings

What do you do when you don’t know what to do? There is a song that says “Lord I’m down here on my knees because it’s the last place I can go” really though is that the last place to go or the first? When I don’t think I can find the answer I need from God (for whatever reason a bias opinion or what not) I also tend to go to a friend or family member. Another out lit for me is to run because it clears my mind. My advice to many though is that you should make a list out of possible outcomes and what to do to reach each out come and then chunk it and do what you want to.

So this was a very random rambling brought to you by me. Sorry I am a little tired 

Saying Goodbye

Over the weekend we lost a young woman in our community. She was like a daughter to my aunt and uncle and my heart breaks for them during this time. I have realized that the way I cope is by writing.

We never know what day will be our last. If we will be 81 or 18. We need to realize that we are not invincible and we need to be careful where we go and what we do. What is more important is that we need to tell people how we feel. Don't leave things unsaid. If you love someone tell them. If someone has made a difference in your life let them know. We never know when our time will come so be sure that you live life to the fullest.

Don't speed when you drive. Really it will only get you there a few minutes faster...is it really worth it? Don't drink and drive. Don't text and drive, is it so important that you can't wait till you get to a stop light, stop sign or home?

I chose this picture because what better way to remember how fragile life is then to look at a baby.

Respect

So I have been meaning to write a new blog for a while but alas time has not been kind to me. My day consist of waking up and studying about an hour, go to school for a few hours, come home and study a few more hours, then read in the Bible for an hour and go to bed. So here is a real quick spill on a topic someone chose for me on respect.

Respect should it be earned or freely given? I was watching Glenn Beck the other day and he quoted some man who I can’t recall at the time that said “Respect should not be earned and is where we need to start.”

I completely agree. Who do you respect? Your elders? Teachers? Parents? Boss? We should respect everyone. We are all humans and we should seek the good in each other instead of just assuming the worse. Yes sadly there are bad people out there but all of humanity is not bad.

I consider myself too trusting at times but really if someone has not given me a reason not to trust them then why should I have trouble trusting them? Why do they have to earn trust and respect?

Now these are some serious things in life trust and respect. They should be held high in importance. When someone does something that they know is wrong or lies to me then yes they will loose respect and trust in my eyes and it will take a lot of work to gain it back. However I choose to respect and trust and give people the benefit of a doubt until they show me they need to be treated otherwise.

Patience and Positive

So lately I have been struggling with both of these issues. It seems that everything I want is a million miles away! I keep trying to find a program I want to get into for nursing and every time I think I have it figured out something happens. I am afraid to say that I think I finally have a plan because when that happens something tends to go wrong. So I am stuck in that thinking of I want it now and I want it the way I want it. :/

I didn’t even realize how negative I was being until a friend was telling me about a negative friend of theirs and how they wish that person would stop complaining. I did a quick recap of my own conversations with that person and realized that when he asked how I was I was either “tired” “bored” “sick of studying” “annoyed” and so on. I didn’t ask if he was talking about myself because I believe he is the kind of guy that would tell you things in a way to let you think and solve it for yourself which is great.

Later I got an email from another friend of mine that was truly touching. It was pictures of children and under each picture had a caption like.
- I know I shut my eyes tight when the sun comes up. Thank you, Lord, for I can see. Tare are many who are blind.
- I know I complain when there is construction noise and what not. Thank you, Lord, for I can hear. There are many who are deaf.
- I know I want to lie in bed all day and I am annoyed that I have to get up. Thank you,Lord, for I am able. There are some who are bed ridden.

I am not saying that it is not okay to be sad or even complain. In fact I think it is good to complain because it is not healthy to keep all of that bottled up. Just remember that in life there is always a rainbow after the rain.

The Lord has always looked out for me. When my plans fail or something happens it usually works out for the best in the end. So I am going to try and be more positive and remember that my day is only as good as I make it. The Lord has blessed me with so much and I am thankful for my family, my friends, my health and the health of my loved ones, for the chance to further my education in college (even though I don’t like going to class from 8 – 4 Mon-Fri)

This is the day the LORD has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. Psalms 118:24

The journey I have chosen will be difficult and time consuming and you know what? Life is not just about the end it is about the journey you take to reach that end. So I have got on my comfy shoes and I am ready to see what I will come across next :)